I miss Plurking and Facebook-ing during the day and being able to run personal errands whenever I want. I miss being at home with Sabine the whole day and being home when Anissa gets off the bus from school. I miss having to stay up late, especially waking up lazily on a Saturday morning because I have half-day work on Saturdays. Now it's back to those all too familiar bouts with evening rush hour traffic (mornings aren't bad at all for me). Thank God for the family driver because I can take cat naps in the car and not be mainit ang ulo when I get home. Now it's back to making endless phonecalls to the house just to check on what's going on and finding it hard to put the phone down all the time because Sabine wants to talk and talk. Now it's back to coffee breaks and praying for 6pm to come so I can leave work and be with my loved ones. Now it's back to having mini fashion shows in the bathroom at night, picking out what to wear to work the next day. I can look at this as a huge setback and say, "Bummer!!!". Yeah I can. But I won't because that's just not how I see it. Sure I miss a lot about my old life, I really do. But I don't dwell on that because I feel extremely blessed to be in the situation I'm in right now. At the ripe age of 40, how many of us can brag about a career opportunity such as the one that came to me, without my even looking? I feel like I'm at the final stretch of my life as a careerwoman. In a few years, the opportunities will just stop coming and I don't want to live out the rest of my years thinking about the ones that I allowed to get away simply because I ignored them. A friend told me, it was a really brave move on my part to go fulltime again. Corporate life can be very draining and she's right. I guess it was really so brave of me to have gone back, after living such a simple and quiet life for the past how many years.
But like i said, I would rather have no regrets later on. If (knock on wood!) this doesn't work out, then I can atleast say that I gave it a try. At the moment, I feel like I'm at the top of my game. This past week, my first back at work, was a truly exciting one. I'm being trusted with this huge responsibility! I have a total of 49 people in my team, with a few more scheduled to be hired. I'm part of the company's Executive Committee, which means that once a week I'd find myself inside the board room sitting at a long table with about a dozen other people, some my Dad's age! I can look at this with much intimidation, after all, they're obviously a lot older than me and so much more experienced at what they do. Instead, I consider it an honor that I was handpicked for this position and am now in the company of seasoned executives. How many of us can say that? I go around the building and everyone calls me "Ma'am"...something I need to get used to because I prefer being called by my first name, even by rank and file employees. But the hotel/travel industry is different this way. The courtesy that hotel guests receive from frontliners is something that even top management and people in the back office are trained to give. We are all one another's customers. But I'm getting derailed here...
Saturday's almost over and I didn't even feel it. I fell asleep soon after I got home from work at 2pm and woke up just before I wrote this. Tomorrow will go by just as quickly I'm sure. Then it will be Monday again, but that's okay. I'm in my best element and I'm happy to be feeling this way despite the challenges that loom in the distance. I know there will be lots of stressful days ahead...I can already feel it. But again, that's okay. This blessing just totally outweighs all the odds.
Oh and before I forget...I'd like you to meet my temporary office. They said I should have a bigger one. I'm hoping they give me a couch so I can take catnaps at lunchtime hahaha!
Notice that my in-tray is half full and it was only Wednesday when I took this photo!
On my very first day last Monday
Have a very happy weekend everyone! Hope you're all counting your blessings too!