Today for the first time in weeks, I felt a slight pinch of nervousness. I guess it's largely due to the fact that my surgery date is drawing nearer and nearer.
So is it okay to be nervous? Will God be disappointed because being nervous may mean that my trust in Him has somehow diminished? Is it a sign that I have allowed the enemy to take charge? Will it be difficult from hereon?
I've been so at peace that each time something seems to threaten it, I tend to panic. It's the kind of feeling you don't ever want to lose. It's what has helped me deal with things so positively so far. So you can just imagine all the thoughts that were running through my head this morning.
My Mom's bestfriend (since kinder --- beat that!) chatted with me on Facebook this morning and told me it is so normal to feel nervous. She said, "hold on to your rosary and invoke Their mercy..." I guess this only means one thing ... being nervous about something also means you feel helpless. When you feel helpless, you call on God. Does it all add up?
He really just wants to make sure I don't let go.
Never, Lord!
It's Monday, shoo away those blues everyone! Be thankful and count your blessings!
Iris, you are so right. Thank you so much for the comforting words and thoughts.
ReplyDeleteHi Patty, sometimes being nervous help us regain focus and realize that we are still in control no matter how big or small the challenges we face. I admire your honesty, vulnerability and courage to share your feelings with others. Vic and I will constantly pray for you... "Expect trouble as an inevitable part of life and repeat to yourself the most comforting words of all: "This, too, shall pass."
ReplyDeleteIris, you are so right. Thank you for your comforting thoughts. :)
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